June 12, 2013

The worst feeling is to be surrounded by people and feel completely alone. That's what happens when I ride the subway. On my way to dinner, I was thinking of nothing but the people in my life I love and cherish. It was impossible to stay focused. The subway is so loud and smelly and creepy. Dinner went well. Better than anticipated. It left me feeling slightly empty, the way one could only expect from such a situation. My thoughts have been filled by someone else for many weeks now, so completely and utterly I neglected my friend. But we left laughing. On the ride home the train was almost empty. I felt so sad I almost started crying.